dear 2009

Dear 2009,

You changed my life in many ways. In fact you changed it unexpectedly. In a bliss. In my unguarded moments. You took away a life that I’ve had for years. Truth is, I planned for you. I planned everything for you. I planned how to save. I planned how to spend. Although the latter was kind of failure because my credit card bill leveled up like the everest. But still, I have no regrets. I spent for food and little things for myself. And I’ll pay it off soon.

I made some decisions that hurt people. But those decisions hurt me as well. Maybe I was just strong enough to bear the pain. Some people came. And I welcomed their presence. Somehow, I felt like I didn’t think much when a prince came to save me from being alone. He made me laugh. He made himself available but then it didn’t last. It took a while before I concluded that he came to make me stand by my previous decision.  He was just a bridge of the past and the present. What we’ve shared is something that belongs to you and it’s not meant to be carried over to 2010.

You made me know myself. You made me realized that there are so many things that I want to do for myself. You made me strong enough so I could enjoy the things that I failed to see or I failed to do for the past years. And I’m thankful for that.

You made me passed the greatest challenge that I had to endure. I did what I could under the circumstances. The rest is up to HIM. I’m not worried. HE holds the future. And whatever it is, I’m sure HE’s about to give what’s best for me.

You are a GREAT challenge for all mankind and for all nation. And now that you’re gone, we are all hoping and praying that the good things that you brought would stay and multiply. As for the bad stuff, we don’t want them anymore and I hope you took it all away when you left.

I love you 2009. But I think I would love 2010 more.

Love,

Michelle