"snowman"
December 27, 2009He made me feel better. Even if I know that it’s not going anywhere. Even if I know that I’m not feeling anything close to love.Even if he is scared to hold me because as he said, “wala naman to pupuntahan”. Even if we don’t talk.
Maybe it’s the familiarity. It’s the feeling of security. It’s the feeling that he won’t really stay but he won’t hurt you either. It’s like there is a connecting line. It’s not reversing. It’s not moving forward either. It’s when you see him drinking with the ladies and posing for photos, maybe flirting a little and yet you are not bothered. Because at the end of the day, you know that you’re the one he cares about. That it is your things he would carry. That it is you he would drive home.
You just have to know that he got home safe without really staying awake for confirmation. The text could come the day after. Texting and calling are not necessary. Talking is optional.
He doesn’t melt my heart I know. But he doesn’t crash it either. And maybe he’s right, “wala naman tong pupuntahan”. But he was my “snowman” and sometimes, we need one. It disappears after the holidays but it leaves a feeling of excitement because after a few months, you know it will come again to keep you light and grounded. 
In my case, there is a chance that “snowman” won’t be around next holidays. But I don’t really care. All I know is that, he was there on the 23rd of December, 2009. =)
