the gifts

Last year, I’ve listed my favorite Christmas gifts. Those were all material things. I admit I liked them all. And in fact, I’m still using some of those. Or somehow, I kept them in my closet. But 2009 is/was a life-changing year and I’ve learned to count my blessings. So here are my best gifts :

THE GIFT OF LIFE - I’ve learned to thank GOD for being alive, and for having a chance to make things better each day. I am also blessed because mama is a lot better after being confined early this year. I am also glad that she has learned to value her health and thank Heavens because she is no longer acting difficult. She visits her doctor regularly, and I don’t have to remind her. I am off the “stress hook”.

THE GIFT OF LOVE - After 5 years, or maybe more, I am celebrating Christmas outside a relationship. Initially, I was expecting stress and drama. It is really a big change. For the past years, I spent Christmas eve with my family. Then, I would spend the remaining holidays in Laguna. Surely, I would miss them. They have been so nice to me. I would miss the kids. Cute, cute kids that I really adore. It isn’t easy to cut people out of your life. Especially if there is mutual love and respect. But I’m not forgetting them. My relationship with each of them is different from the relationship that ended. I think no one can take that away from us. And I’m glad because we’re alright.

I love myself more. I respect myself. And I’m ready to take another risk with someone who is likewise ready to take a chance on me. But for now, I’m loving my life. Not my independence because it is innate in me. I just feel like I’m pushing myself to the limits. I’m doing what I want and slowly, I’m becoming better. I’m slowly reaching my personal goals.

I gave my best. But I can give more. That’s what I’ve learned. And that is love.

THE GIFT OF WISDOM - BIG things happened to me. I’ve hurdled the most amazing intellectual and emotional challenge all at the same time. I’ve learned so much. And really, my perspective in life changed. I feel like I can give better pieces of advice now. I feel like I’ve been through hell and I can save others from drowning.

THE GIFT OF SHARING - I love sharing. No further explanation.This thing, I would rather keep. (Weird, I love sharing but I don’t want to share stuff about this).

THE GIFT OF FRIENDSHIP - I was too busy that I failed to give time. I’m glad that things did not change. I’m so blessed to have my real friends. I know them now. I don’t have to say who’s best. They are all best. They are all real.

THE GIFT OF ADVENTURE - Hmm… Great adventure. Something I would not repeat. But something that I cherish.

THE GIFT OF FAITH - I’m no longer impatient. Everything is destined to happen. I’m just so excited to see the future. I was born to be what I am and what I would be.

THE GIFTS - Alright. I still love the material gifts. The books from Cookie, My boss and Ate Lalaine. I love that I can now read non-law books in my own pace. Shine’s cute cute mirror. My new tumbler. And anything that would come from sis, lina, ratch and family members. In fact, they are enough. ;p

hihi

I’ve been getting gifts today. I’ve been a good girl maybe. Hihi.

I love the Books! Thanks cookie (Ang mahal naman nito. Shy ako. Hahaha) and Ma’am Riz for “Dear John”.

And also, I love Conti’s from Sir REC (I feel like a manager already. Ako lang ang hindi manager na may Conti’s) ;p

I won’t open the others. I’m testing my EQ!!! On the 23rd, I will!