to disappear

There are times when I feel like I would like to disappear. But not forever. Only for a while. Or maybe I would like to be invisible. For a moment. So I would. I should. Two days to go, and I’ll burn it all. I need to. =)

Mass Killings

We should all grieve because of this.

Ito na lang ba ang halaga ng buhay?

Pulitika. Pera. Ambisyon. Kapangyarihan.

Nasaan ang hustisya?

done deal

Everyone deserves to be happy.  

I’m excited. Because I can feel that it’s on my way to me.

Somehow.

Although right now I’m doomed. ;p

But I guess that’s the way it is.

When it rains, it pours.

SO even if my heart is heavy. BECAUSE I’m so fu*^in’ stressed out!

I have faith. I need that. Still I’m learning to understand that I should wait.

That’s my WORST trait. I can’t wait. I don’t have patience.

I’ll get what I want I’ll work for it. But I should wait. For HIS go signal.

Ho-hum. ;p

2012

“The moment we stop fighting for each other, that’s the moment we lose our humanity”  -Adrian Helmsley  

 * I had a great time watching 2012 (GB1) with neph. Glorietta was so jampacked! Gb1 was a wise move. More to come. Nice that zara is also your favorite! I love the office wear and the shoes! Awwh. Saving and pay-off mode still but in time, I’ll be able to shop again!!! Hey you look gorgeous Better off without. Haha. Peace! 

* John Cusack has always been a cute guy (for me). He looks smart. Not so Brad Pitt. But there’s something about him. He’s still the Serendipity guy in my eyes. 

* Amanda Peet looks a lot older than her A LOT LIKE LOVE days. 

* 2012 is not so different from all other “end of the world” movies. It’s just the technology. Hihi.  

* Wendy’s is getting so expensive. It’s not deserving. I would not trade Mcdo fries and Jabie Chicken and even Delifrance (which I really really heart these days). 

* I heart the young monk  

* Christian Bautista is really handsome in person.

* 2012 isn’t happening. GOD loves us. We just need to change and care about the world we live in. Maybe embrace the inventions and the ever-changing technology. But we should be human beings. We should care. We should not be self-centered. We should share. We should live with a purpose, and it must be worthwhile.

no to emo

After all the emotera entries during the past month, I realized that I’ve already written the necessaries. =) I’ve said what I felt. I’ve poured it out. So now, I’m putting an end to this emo-emo.

My next entries would probably dwell on travels, career and worthwhile issues.

Thanks to myrel for the sermonette! Indeed, I am blessed in many ways.

Good morning friends! =)

truth lies

I have to believe that things aren’t always what they seem.  That’s the best thought that I have to live through. After all, I’m good in seeing the beauty behind every ugly piece of reality.

It’s funny though because I can do it without effort. I’m slowly discovering things that would have hurt me long ago. It’s just surprising that I’m accepting them now as they are. Just like raw facts. Just like processed information. Just like thin air that goes in and out of my ears.

Is this abnormal? Not feeling hurt. Not feeling pain. Not cursing.

These pieces of information should have been multiple slaps on the face. They should have struck my pride. They should have broken my esteem. But they don’t.

Am I numb? Am I still human?

So many things were hidden from me. Rather, so many words were left unsaid so I could blame myself for not being the best that I could be. Some people think that I faulted. I never said I didn’t. But they have to be in my place to understand. I wish they would know how it feels.

For some reason, I stopped caring about what people say. I don’t know. I got tired? I’m even too lazy to text or answer calls of someone I just met. It’s just tiring to spend time on people who are just around to bug and mess my time. It’s intuition. Maybe he’ll just invite me to a multi-level marketing scheme so I keep on concocting lies so he won’t feel like I’m avoiding him. Hihihi.

I want to be around positive people. They don’t have to lie to me. I don’t have to lie to them. Good thing, I know who they are now. I have a list. My office mates told me a while ago that I have so many friends who give me stuff. They want to meet my friends too. They ask why my friends send me stuff and give me money. Hahaha. Well, maybe I’ve been a good girl. But really, it’s not what they give me that count. It’s really the kind of friendship that I have with them. It’s knowing your flaws and lies, and still loving everything about you.

what should i do? where do i start?

:(