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i wonder why it’s difficult for some people to grow up, and move on.

Dear GOD…

Dear GOD,

Please give me strength to go through my destined path. I know this is what I want, and I know this is what you want for me. We’ve talked about this. I’ve asked for signs. You got me through. Sometimes, it feels like giving up especially when I feel like my heart is not in one with what I’m currenty doing. I always tell myself that this is just a means to an end. The future is a better one. I need to stay for the here and now.

Please give me patience until he opens his heart, until he believes me. I thought the truth would set us all free but I feel like it caused me the opposite. You know what happened. You know what’s true. I know I’ve committed some mistakes but I didn’t mean any of those that hurt others.  I know you wanted me to go through that stage. I appreciate the lessons. I became stronger. I pray that he would respect me for all that I am. I pray that he would be in one with YOU in believing that things are bound to happen to mould me into a better persona.

Thank you for loving me. Without restrictions. Without qualifications. Without conditions.

Love,

Mish

hayy…

Sometimes, I feel like I don’t belong "here" anymore. I want to be surrounded by intellectuals. Hehe! Read between the lines. )

Gusto ko na mag-resign! Well, there are intellectuals here. Like my boss. I’m not making "sipsip". She won’t be able to read this anyway. I guess it’s more of the attitude. Some people here need to broaden their horizons.

Got this message from chacey yesterday:

"they laugh at me because i am different, but they did not know that i also laugh because they are all the same…"

I love it! ;p

BrAD

I was deeply saddened by Brad Renfro’s death.I know it’s crazy.I should be writing about Heath. I guess the latter is more popular because of his controversial stint in "Brokeback Mountain". But I like Brad. And I didn’t know he’s dead until yesterday when I happened to tune in to RX while they were pronouncing a list of Hollywood actors who died in their 20’s.

At 13, I’d seen "The Cure". Those were the days when I would cry over movies and television shows. That was the first time I saw Brad. I became his fan. Over the years, my preferences have changed. Now, I would go for Depp. But there’s still a kid inside me who remained to be Brad’s fan.

Perhaps I was more saddened by the fact that he was too young to go. At 25, there are still so many things to live for. But then again, he’s with the LORD now. He died to live for HIM, and it is beyond anything that we could live for.